I just don't have the guts to get out of my situation yet.
Sending you a great big hug!
I can really relate to your list, right down to not having the guts to get out yet. I used to have anxiety and fear but I could always talk myself out of it. I used to be so logical and rational. After 16.5 years of marriage, I feel paralyzed by fear and am trying to get back to a place where I can find it in me to leave or do something different.
I have read so many of your posts Vortex. I really feel for you. Suffering for 16.5 years I can understand your complete paralysis with fear. HUGS BACK!