just a thought

[Mutt]

In a strange way it almost makes me feel better about the whole thing.

It sounds like you're ready to break this cycle. Change comes from you. Change doesn't come from someone else. Once you change, everything changes. You have to own your half of this tango. It takes two right? It's a powerful moment when you make the decision to own it. Then you act on it. You did your best with what you knew at the time.

Your emotions are all over. I understand. The first step is always the hardest. Detaching takes time. Freedom from this suffering awaits. Keep patience and keep going.

[ScotisGone74]

BrokenFam recovering from the wounds of a BPD relationship does not occur along a linear path.     Recovery is choppy, a couple good days then maybe a few bad days.   Hang in there I know you are hurting , with each day out of the Fog you will become stronger.    Honestly in the Big Picture who you are married to or dating may come or go, but your kids are for lifetime.   

[peiper]

After starting her abusive behavior I quit driving her down to see her family, who all thought I was great. A couple of months before the BU she actually told the she had been telling them what a mean jerk I was. I had hoped that she had painted me so black she would leave me alone. But that wasn't to be the case. I guess I need another coat.

[BrokenFamily]

Thanks Mutt, I think this is yet another big step forward.

[Mutt]

Thanks Mutt, I think this is yet another big step forward.

I agree. From one brother to another you're welcome. I believe we have to save ourselves to save the kids. You have a community here to fall back on in time of need. We're behind you brother.