Hospitalized

[TakingWingAtLast]

I was hospitalized today for a bleed in my stomach.   I've never been so lonely.   No one here.  No one visited.  In between vital signs, I've been crying.  It's surreal that 6 weeks ago I would have had the expwBPDgf here taking control of the whole process.    I wanted to call so bad to say that I was in the hospital.  What the heck is wrong with me?

I know, I know... nothing but grief.   (I'm anticipating your responses!  )  I didn't make the call choosing instead to be at a hospital by myself.   Man, this one is digging deep, though.

Thanks for listening to the pity party.

Oh, I'm fine, btw.  The procedure is done and I'll probably get out tomorrow morning.   And go on with the my travel plans.

D

[Lucky Jim]

Hey TakingWing, In my view, your feelings are normal under the circumstances, but that doesn't mean you should act on them.  Instead, just observe, which seems to be what you are doing.  I admire that you didn't give in to the temptation to contact your xBPDgf, and resisted the urge to jump back into the toxic soup.  Hang in there, Lucky Jim

[Tincanmike]

TakingWing,

I'm sending my good "mojo" your way!  Take care of yourself and stay strong.  Let us know how things go for you.

[arn131arn]

Hope you are will Wings!

The last thing you want is her at your bedsise... .You never know... .you never know

[Iwalk-Heruns]

I'm glad you are ok takingwing!

I'm sorry you are feeling alone. I can really feel your pain and loneliness because I have had the exact same situation happen to me.

5 months after my ex took off without a word and no contact I had to have major surgery. I felt so alone(even with a friend there) and deeply deeply sad. I was crying in the pre op room as I waited to go in. Not because I was afraid of the surgery but I missed him so much. I think I was even in the same room as the surgery he was there for, holding my hand and comforting me. I was Having major flash backs. I was so used to him being there in the hospital with me and going to dr appts. I had cancer and he was there for me and that had meant everything to me. I just couldn't bare it that day. I mean it was 5 months later, he had been long into a new relationship and I was still mourning him like it had happened yesterday. I am tearing up thinking about it. It was a major hurt for me.

We are here for you though and know what you are going through.

[Aussie0zborn]

A big man hug for you! Stay cool and feel the full gravity of the ill effects she has had on you. Then act on changing it. Wishing you a speedy recovery.

[TakingWingAtLast]

Iwalk,

Thank you for your kind note.   I hope your cancer has abated and that you are doing well nonetheless.   Do you have good support now for that?

I get the major hurt.  My separation was 5 weeks rather than 5 months, so it is a pretty acute feeling.   Flash backs indeed.  

Better to be lonely that to be back into the toxic soup though... .

D

[TakingWingAtLast]

Thank all of you for your well wishes.   Aussie, Arn, Iwalk, TinCanMike, and Lucky Jim.   The procedure is done, and I'm going to be just fine.   Just had a drippy few hours there feeling pretty bad.   

D

[Iwalk-Heruns]

Iwalk,

Thank you for your kind note.   I hope your cancer has abated and that you are doing well nonetheless.   Do you have good support now for that?

I get the major hurt.  My separation was 5 weeks rather than 5 months, so it is a pretty acute feeling.   Flash backs indeed.  

Better to be lonely that to be back into the toxic soup though... .

D

Most definitely! I was still confused last time. Went back to him 5 mo. Later and am now again 5 mo out again ! Never again! Glad you held strong and didn't contact. That takes a lot of strength. Good for you.

I am doing well so far thanks for asking! Sorry didn't mean to turn it into me just wanted you to know I know how it feels. Glad your ok.

[mango_flower]

Hope you feel better soon!  Stay strong xxx

[Pearl55]

Taking

Hey, you don't need a fake validation from a crazy girl, do you? Of course not!

Mothering is not for a grown up man. Lol

[maxen]

glad you're okay, takingwing!

you too iwalk!

[Iwalk-Heruns]

glad you're okay, takingwing!

you too iwalk!

Thanks Maxen!

[love4meNOTu]

Wanted to send you good thoughts tonight takingwing... .

I've been in your situation before. I'm so glad you reached out to us, you are not alone.

Hugs.

Lyn

 

[TakingWingAtLast]

glad you're okay, takingwing!

you too iwalk!

Thanks Maxen.  Pearl, you are too funny.  No.  Don't the validation from the ex.  Being a MAN!   Well, except for all the crying perhaps.  But hey, I didn't call or text the ex, so there! 

Thank you as well, Love4meNotu.  Very kind of you!

[RecycledNoMore]

You, my dear

Wrote a book!,

A book!

Im picking my nose and watching tv?

Youl get through this, tears n all

Travel safely tomorrow, keep your head up!

P.s im not really picking my nose, I wanted to make you smile x(( hugs))x

[Surnia]

A big hug to you TWAL.

Under stress and the extreme situation of being in hospital its just normal having such a desire reaching out.

I am glad you can leave hospital soon. Take care.

[TakingWingAtLast]

You, my dear

Wrote a book!,

A book!

Im picking my nose and watching tv?

Youl get through this, tears n all

Travel safely tomorrow, keep your head up!

P.s im not really picking my nose, I wanted to make you smile x(( hugs))x

Recycled,

thanks for the funny note!   Made me smile indeed!

So, I leave you with the obvious:

You can pick your friends

And you can pick your nose,

But you can't pick your friend's nose!

D

[heartandwhole]

So glad you are okay, TakingWing!

It's really great that you reached out when you were feeling lonely – there is a lot of support and cyber hugs waiting for you.     Reaching out to us instead of your ex was a very loving thing to do for yourself, be proud!

Have a great trip, and Happy Holidays!   

[Mutt]

I hope you recover quickly TakingWingAtLast and have a safe and Happy Holidays!   

[damage control]

So sorry to hear both about your surgery and your (understandable) loneliness ... I hope that you are feeling better by the time you read this TWAL ...

I always say ... Christmas sucks ...

[TakingWingAtLast]

All,

Thank you for the well wishes everyone.  And most especially for the awesome support as I almost made a huge mistake.   You helped keep me on the right path and for that I'm REALLY grateful! 

I'm doing very well and have been able to eat again normally.  And I'm back on schedule for the travel plans. 

D

[Surnia]

You kept yourself on the path - posting here instead off... . 

Enjoy your traveling.   

[Jbt857]

Oh, Takingwing - what crappy timing to get sick!

Glad to hear you are on the mend - it hopefully means you will be in tip-top shape for your travel, and new horizons are remarkable for their powers of recuperation. Where are you headed?

Happy Christmas - we're all here,  ! 

[LilMissSunshine]

Just reading this threat and I hope you are still feeling better TWAL.  I'm sure if we all could have been there, physically, for you we would have been.   

[TakingWingAtLast]

Oh, Takingwing - what crappy timing to get sick!

Glad to hear you are on the mend - it hopefully means you will be in tip-top shape for your travel, and new horizons are remarkable for their powers of recuperation. Where are you headed?

Happy Christmas - we're all here,  ! 

Kentucky then Bermuda ten Nashville , TN.  Won't be back until the 15 Jan.


Very excited!   Thanks for asking!