Hi again,
Thank you for encouraging me to keep focused on reality.
These last days at my friend's house have helped me recover just enough to make some short-term plans. I am going back to my home country at least for a week (before my sick leave permit ends). My goal, for now, is just to regain some energy and avoid renouncing to the minuscule things I have build in this place. I feel like the big decisions, such as moving back permanently, must wait. I don't feel like I am completely lucid after all that has happened.
I saw him briefly today while I was taking some clothes from the old apartment and saying hello to my cat. He started talking about how happy he is about moving and starting the new job. I didn't engage, except for wishing him good luck (which was sincere. I genuinely love him and that cannot change).
Thank you for encouraging me to keep focused on reality.
These last days at my friend's house have helped me recover just enough to make some short-term plans. I am going back to my home country at least for a week (before my sick leave permit ends). My goal, for now, is just to regain some energy and avoid renouncing to the minuscule things I have build in this place. I feel like the big decisions, such as moving back permanently, must wait. I don't feel like I am completely lucid after all that has happened.
I saw him briefly today while I was taking some clothes from the old apartment and saying hello to my cat. He started talking about how happy he is about moving and starting the new job. I didn't engage, except for wishing him good luck (which was sincere. I genuinely love him and that cannot change).
Hi Pluie. I'm glad you've made plans, even if they're only temporary at this point. When I was in your position several years ago with my BPD ex wife, I was just trying to get through each day.
Going home for a week removes these burdens and that's exactly whay you need right now. Maybe you decide to stay, or maybe you come back. Either option is fine and your body will tell you what to do. Please let us know if there's anything else we can do for you or questions we can answer. We're here for you!


