HI! Welcome to the club nobody wants to be in

my daughter was diagnosed 5 years ago....the quick version is, we went through a rough year (I sound nonchalant about it, but it has been so long); I researched BPD, went to NAMI, read the books she suggested (I DO agree "Walking On Eggshells" in helpful; I stayed her apartment, whenever, she asked, hid her pills & knives, like she asked...her moods would (as predicted) change like the wind....long story short, nearly 4 years ago, she told me I was enabling her (facetious comment: doing the things she asked me to do) and stated she would "reach out when she is ready", over these 4 years, she would text whenever she needed something, or respond to (I learned to use very brief texts, i.e. Merry Christmas) or respond to gifts I mailed to her; as of this writing, she is not responding to any texts....I always feel like the "other shoe is going to drop", because 3 years ago, she stated "I did not try hard enough to contact her"; there have been so many hurtful things that have been said and accusations, that I would need to use this entire page! She cut off ties with her father, sister & 4 beautiful nieces....at this time, I am just laying low, with the mindset, when or if she is ready she will reach out, though, I never, in a million years, imagined it would be THIS long....I miss my daughter very much, however, not the cruelty....I guess my only advice is: stay strong, never doubt yourself (b/c this is a nasty disease), I would research and patience is the key; and the others in this group are ROCK stars with amazing advice....please reach out, if you like!