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Hi there,
Wow, I get the sense that when most family members come here wondering about going No Contact, they aren't usually thinking about a protective order. That a protective order already exists for your pwBPD indicates that her behavior has become extreme and harmful.
In my opinion, getting a protective order is typically a last resort, when other modes of going NC or LC haven't worked. Getting a protective order implies that a third party needs to be involved to enforce boundaries, i.e. the legal system and/or police. I guess that's not uncommon, because pwBPD do not like boundaries . . . when they're not getting therapy, they have trouble getting past the past.
In my own experience, it's the pwBPD who typically initiates NC. That's because she feels she has reached an emotional limit; my guess is that she deems her entire family to be "toxic." In addition, her personality is avoidant in nature--think of it as a trauma-based flight response. To avoid feelings of anxiety, she'll generally avoid other people. She'd avoid work and school if she could, as well as life's ordinary stressors--paying bills, maintaining her car, buying insurance, whatever. Her typical response is to avoid things until she has no other choice. And so she'll also avoid people, by going NC, probably to avoid negative feelings associated with them. Right now the pwBPD in my life has no contact with any members of her immediate family, of varying duration (a few years for siblings, a couple of years for her mom, a few months for her dad and me). That means not responding to any texts or calls, let alone making a visit or sharing a meal. Nevertheless, we keep tabs on her through her therapist. Also, she still gets some mail at my home, which her dad will forward onto her. We know where she lives and works, too. That's something. Her dad will send an occasional short message from time to time, along the lines of, "Thinking of you, hope you are well, I just mailed you some things." I'm pretty sure he regularly gives her money via a joint account, too. While I don't love that, because it feels like "rewarding" her for ingnoring her dad, I'm sure he does it out of genuine concern.
Yet in your case, it sounds like you are considering initiating the NC. Typically you'd do that to protect yourself, and to reduce the drama in your life. You should absolutely do that if you feel you need a break and time to take care of yourself. It wouldn't have to be forever, not necessarily. My advice? Don't announce what you're doing if you don't have to, and certainly don't blame it on her ("I'm blocking you because of what you did"). She would take that as a hostile form of abandonment, which is a top trigger for pwBPD. She'd think you were blaming HER, when she's convinced that YOU are to blame. So I think it's better not to say anything at all. That way, you don't JADE (Justify, Argue, Defend or Explain). You don't use logic when your sibling is dealing with overwhelming emotions . . . she can't process logic when she's upset. Instead, you just stop calling. You stop texting and emailing. You stop visiting, and you stop inviting her over. You make different plans. Rather than aggressively avoid her, I think you get BUSY with your life. You're so busy and happy that the time flies, you practically forgot about your sibling's dramas. One author here recommended something like a "slow fade." Get busy, reduce the frequency of texts/emails, and hope your sibling starts to direct her anger elsewhere, because she's not getting the attention she craves from you.
Now, there are repercussions, especially with the extended family. If there's a large family gathering, you might not be able to control whether you see her. If you are committed to NC, then you might have to miss a family gathering where your sibling would be present. That could hurt the feelings of innocent family members. Not everyone would understand why siblings aren't talking to each other, and it might make you look bad, if they didn't know the whole story. As for your sibling, surely she'll blame you for treating her badly, ignoring her, casting her out, alienating her or treating her like garbage. But my guess is she already thinks you're awful; otherwise you wouldn't feel the need to get some distance from her, to protect your own well-being.
Nevertheless, I think many people here try "hybrid" approaches. Maybe they go Low Contact, for example only engaging when the sibling is acting civilly. The moment she acts out or broaches a negative topic, you make your exit (or disengage from any text or email chain). Maybe you attend the major family events (weddings, Christmas), provided that there's a "buffer" of other people. You are civil, but you don't share any personal or emotionally charged information which could be triggering. You keep visits very brief, so your sibling isn't overwhelmed. You never stay at her place or vice versa--you don't want to impose--you stay at a hotel, to give her space to wind down. Your written correspondence is what you'd send to a distant cousin--Happy holidays!--nothing too personal, emotionally charged or revealing, and certainly no advice, either. It's almost like a business relationship: friendly but superficial, often transactional, so you can stay out of the drama. Maybe you mourn the loss of a "normal" relationship with your sibling, as seems typical here. But if your sibling is abusive to you and compromising your well-being, then the relationship won't be "normal" until she gets some help. You can't change her; only she can do that.
All of the modes are contact are designed around YOU. You can't control how your sister will act, but you can control how you relate to her. Hope that perspective helps a little, in a very difficult situation.
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