trying to keep from being sucked back in

[simplyasiam]

i had my fill of the false hope and useless i still love you crap this morning. after 30 day of n/c shes been txting for 7 day, yesterday she needed me couse panic attacks got bad had to lock herself in bath room.

by this morning it was back to the i miss and love thing but i cant be with you.

my last txt to her

(we have moved on from eachother its best it stays that way. i will not be txting or calling anymore)

her mom and i feel we have enabled her for to long we promised to stop, were praying this will help her seek help.

i pray it helps me i have seen way to much pain. it killed me sending that last txt to her felt sick all day. i know i gave it all i had and i can do nothing but help me.

her mom thinks not having us to support her will break her down and make her see what a bad path she is on but her mom also thinks that her being selfish is whole trouble... . mom dont want admit BPD is fueling this mess.

sucks not knowing where life is taking you, feels a little better know atleast it was me that said its time for this to stop

[empower-me]

I know what you mean simplyasiam,

I too have been off and on with the pwBPD for several decades... . yep and i'm still trying to not get sucked back in.

I guess after that long it is almost second nature to think about them more than you'd like but it still is hard to let go.

I also feel kinda stuck but I too was the one who kicked him out almost 6 months ago and he is barely starting to act like he is responsible for anything that he did.  Thru some emails and leaving a few voice mails he's owning up to some of it but I know that I can't live that way any longer.

It does suck having to do such drastick measures in order to have some normalcy in your life but thats just the nature of the beast/disorder.

Stay strong and listen to your intuition on what steps to take, it rarely fails you.

e-m