Do you still have unresolved feelings for her?
Yes, in an odd way. Basically, there is a woman I loved, and still do love. And there is a woman who is mean, cruel, evil and ill. And I really hate the latter, or perhaps just don't care for her in the least.
The former, rarely comes out anymore. There are times, post separation that I'll still see that "person", but it's as if she's been murdered. Most of the time, the only "person" inside of her is that other one.
So most of the time, I don't feel love toward her anymore. Because, in my mind... .there are two separate persons. Yet, the one I love, the one that has grown increasingly less apparent over the years. That one still has many threads to my heart.
There is also a loss and yearning that arises from the broken dreams. The attempts to love. Which is where these things hurt most deeply. The shattered dreams and hopes I had for us. :-(
