How to handle Birthdays and Holidays etc.

[Mike-X]

What model of Mustang?

It was an '86 with T-top.  5.0 with modifications.  Bought it that way, wish I still had it!

Nice! I have an 08 GT. It is currently broken, because I had too much fun with it, but I am moving it up the priority list to get it back on the road.   I have also been looking into buying an SN95 or Fox, maybe a convertible to cruise around in, at least until I get the 08 back up.

What do you think of the 2015s?

Haven't really followed vehicles lately, but I love mustangs.  Shelbys in particular.  Right now I have NOTHING.  The BPD ex made sure of that.  My brother had a '69 Shelby GT-500.  I was about 14 back then but I used to take it out when he went to work.  Was cammed blueprinted etx. Was a beast.  Now I am happy getting out of bed in the morning. Weird trade-off right?

Mine has been sitting broken since before my divorce and then through the relationship with the udxGF. I had hoped that the GF and I would work on it, but there was so "much" with the relationship that I never had the time to really work on it. I thought that it would be fun to get greasy together.

[fromheeltoheal]

but I'm still scotch taped to her... . or rather... . scotch taped to what I envision we had

I am already, in my own opinion, treading where I should not go.

Throw me a line, I'm drowning again!

OK, let's run with the metaphors: what if you traded in the Scotch tape for Velcro, as you tread water, her attached to your ankle, pulling you down.  This is a sink or swim situation and you don't need a line; you can rip that Velcro strap off and swim for shore, although we're in a boat to make sure you make it.  Swim hard dude, let's see you show yourself how strong we all know you are.  Words be powerful... .

[DyingLove]

but I'm still scotch taped to her... . or rather... . scotch taped to what I envision we had

I am already, in my own opinion, treading where I should not go.

Throw me a line, I'm drowning again!

OK, let's run with the metaphors: what if you traded in the Scotch tape for Velcro, as you tread water, her attached to your ankle, pulling you down.  This is a sink or swim situation and you don't need a line; you can rip that Velcro strap off and swim for shore, although we're in a boat to make sure you make it.  Swim hard dude, let's see you show yourself how strong we all know you are.  Words be powerful... .

Nicely worded fromheeltoheal.  Right to tears... .I guess I'm not that strong yet... .but I'm certainly NOT going to go down with the "anchor".  This is how I worded it to a friend this morning... .

I can still see the good and bad of the r/s in my mind. I am kinda working on autopilot, because I fight my urges by following my mental itinerary. My mental itinerary is the knowledge that I should be moving forward not dwelling on what I cannot control nor can anything be fixed except for me.

I want to be back in her arms. But that would never work, It's like walking right back into what I left, and I would be devastated. Double edged sword.  And her birthday is tomorrow... .I thought it was Sunday but I was wrong. (who cares right?)

[DyingLove]

Well it's here!  It's her birthday.  I'm still alive!

On a serious note, I didn't know whether or not to "recognize" the birthday in my mind, but how could I not?  I prayed to God for her last night around midnight and left it in his hands. He knows how I feel and why I do what I do... . I fugured I couldn't get any better than that.  I did have wicked dreams of her last night... .I was chasing her down, couldn't get to her quick enuff to tell her that I loved her... .etc.  It was a different setting and even though it was her, it was someone else.  I remember feeling so broke up in my dream and maybe crying in there too.  In fact my eyes really hurt this morning as does everything else.  I am just going to MAKE IT THRU TODAY!  It's 8:30, and I'm headed to be with my son for at least the morning.  I'll keep busy and I'll TRY not to look anywhere that I might see something that might trigger me (FB).  Damn... .someone else said it too, I'm really starting to hate FB.  I wish all my friends here a peaceful day and nice weather and I'll get on here later and check in.  Keep your fingers crossed for me and I'll be praying for you all also. 

[Mike-X]

Enjoy the time with your son!

[DyingLove]

Enjoy the time with your son!

Sitting and waiting with him to get a tattoo. I'm kinda like a patient pet, you can bring me just about any where and as long as I have a seat and phone to keep me occupied I'm good.

[Mike-X]

Enjoy the time with your son!

Sitting and waiting with him to get a tattoo. I'm kinda like a patient pet, you can bring me just about any where and as long as I have a seat and phone to keep me occupied I'm good.

Lol. Gotta love smart phones.

[DyingLove]

Enjoy the time with your son!

Sitting and waiting with him to get a tattoo. I'm kinda like a patient pet, you can bring me just about any where and as long as I have a seat and phone to keep me occupied I'm good.

Lol. Gotta love smart phones.

Yes, every one just whips out their phones!