Hi E!
My mother was verbally abusive to me. She also went over the line with physical punishment. I would get the silent treatment if I didn't act as I was expected to act. I never came first. My mother now is 87. I am basically the only one that talks to her. She calls me like 3 times a day. I am on the other side of the country from her. She now apologizes to me for being so mean to me. At first it was a relief that she admitted it but now it just leaves me with wanting to be left alone.
Do you believe her apologies are sincere? And has she since stopped being verbally abusive to you?
She treated my sister and brother (6 and 8 years older than me) with more respect.
It often happens that a BPD parent 'splits' his/her children into all-good or all-bad. Do you perhaps feel that your mother also did this to you and your siblings?
I am NC with my daughter and it is a relief. I am working on me. I can't stand to think about my grandsons because it hurts too much. They are my babies and she made it necessary to walk out of her life. I will get through this. I will.
It is sad that things are the way they are. Sometimes it is necessary to distance ourselves from our BPD family-members to preserve our own well-being. This does not necessarily always have to last forever though, it all depends on the situation and things might change in the future. I am glad you are making use of this opportunity to work on you
When you look at the Survivor's Guide for adults who suffered Childhood abuse (in the right-hand side margin), where do you feel you are now? Are there any areas listed there that you particularly find yourself struggling with or would like to work on?
