2 weeks a go, We slipped up and had sex. Felt like she was trying something different. First time since the original break up. That's where i guess the idea and talk about maybe getting back together came from.
While in bed, I asked if she was in love with me. She said, I love you. I didn't hear here so i asked again. She repeated "I love you!". using same tone of voice. Like to convince herself or stand firmly on her belief. :)on't know how to explain her tone.
Anyway, any time after the break up, if i accused her of never actually loving me, or if i say, girl! you have no idea what love is. Or you don't love me anymore so stop it or anything like that, she'll reply with... .No that doesn't just go away like that. With a lil goofy smirk on her face but the exact reaction Every time! OR No! That stays!... . looks down, smiles like a shy girl and says, no that takes awhile. You really think that it can just go away? I just stare at her thinking , frankly, who gives a f. Knowing or not knowing doesn't benefit me no way. Besides, my friends from bpdfamily says you did not love me and you are a cheat. So ha.
Then her voice wld change suddenly and she'll come from no where and start saying that she's never been with anyone but me since we started dating.i me defending herself but I never asked. I don't ask about if, or who she's been with so why she finds it important to let me tell me that, if I'm not asking and she detached? I find it weird.
