Hi Zabava
Unlike past episodes of crazy, I have come back to reality more quickly. I reached out here and to my family and friends for support and was pleasantly surprised to find that people care.
What you say here is very positive and shows that you've actually already made significant progress, have new resources at your disposal and you're also utilizing these resources
You are able and willing to acknowledge and articulate what you're going through and are taking steps to mitigate the issues you face. Another
You are concerned about what you perceive as a relapse. However, when you take a bird's eye view of things, can you then perhaps also see the progress you've made?
You've been through a lot in your life and the reality for many if not all of us children of disordered parents is, that our healing not only isn't linear, it likely requires ongoing maintenance. Some days will be better than others, the important things is to keep on trucking as our
Panda39 once famously said on here when responding to another member.
It might also help to consider these words from the often quoted
Pete Walker:
"Be patient with a slow recovery process: it takes time in the present to become un-adrenalized, and considerable time in the future to gradually decrease the intensity, duration and frequency of flashbacks. Real recovery is a gradually progressive process (often two steps forward, one step back), not an attained salvation fantasy. Don't beat yourself up for having a flashback."The Board Parrot
