I'm on the verge of loosing my husband

[AnaEllis]

I'm terrified I'm going to loose him, we've been together for 4 years and in all honestly I haven't been the best. I have bipolar and he has borderline, over the past 4 years I've ruined the trust he had with me and my family has also told him horrible lies, we have two children together and he currently wants to leave. He always accuses me of cheating, but a few months ago something did happen. He begged me to tell him everything that has happened in our relationship, promised he would love me and wouldn't leave. I just want to do simething to fix this, to rebuild our trust and our relationship and I have no idea where to start

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