I co-wrote a screen play, and got paid for it! I almost got a very good government job, and am still in the running for another that may be better than the first one. I am on the cusp of opening my own business. I have work. I feel like I am in a relationship with and not just putting up with my husband.
My children are smart, strong, independent, my grandchild adorable.
My home is unique, cozy and paid for. My vehicles reliable.
I should be good right? Not entirely, not everything that is important to me is about me.
The atmosphere is changing, nature is evolving with it. Storms hit with fury and dispatch. No one can really tell us how the earth is changing or what is in store for tomorrow. I have to keep battling this constant urge to be totally self sufficient. I hate going to a chain store to buy my groceries from every corner of the planet. The earth matters to me. And it feels like the earth is hurting, or something. I don't know, I just know it scares the begeebers out of me - the whole topic, everything about it.
The political system here is not horrific, but it ain't very helpful either - at least, not for the common local people. I know it isn't going to change over night, but we just had a chance to show we want change, through an election, and we didn't do it. This bugs me - a lot. Do people not realize that insanity is the act of doing things over and over and expecting different results? Wake up, guys! Doing things the same does not make change. Blue and Red are both what was, the same old governance. Pick what is. I don't care what that looks like to you, just pick it and not blue or red! I felt pressured not to say all that aloud before the election, for fear my business dealings with the government would be put in jeopardy. And that really bugs me! I am not one used to living the political game, so I'm treading on new ground here. Yet I wanted so badly to say my piece during this last election. It just seems so much more important to me now.
I am involved in two community groups that are dear to my heart. Both of them are shrinking, and one is almost fizzled out. People just don't do adult community group volunteer work anymore. I don't like it. It's what binds people together, working towards a common goal. Why is this not important to people any more? This bugs me too.
This is progress, I have old and new interests
Even if, it does bug me.
My spiritual journey continues. I feel growth in this regard. Things make more sense, understanding comes easy, love flows simply. I'm in a good place right now. Moment to cherish!
A stable home life does wonders for the soul!
