Yes It now been nearly two weeks since I seen my uBPDbf. Not really sure why for we not had a argument or anything. This is something he does. Disappear for a length of time texting me to say that he will phone tonight but never does.
It pattern is upsetting to say the least. However it gives me time to reflect and get things into perspectives. I beginning not to worry as much as I did before. Secondly I am getting to do some things that I had left for a long time and sorting out my life as best I can.
I trying not to phone him to ask him why is he not phoning me. But just leave the running for him to do if that what he wants to do.
I am learning that I am not responsible for his actions. I only responsible for my own actions and I have to start to take care of me. This means not worrying about if or when I will see him. It not that my feelings for him has changed its the way I am beginning to respond to his absence. Also keeping my mind on things to do with me.
I worry still that he may or may not contact me again. But I really don't know how to turn my feeling off in that aspect but it is the constant hoping and praying he will. I trying to discover ways of keeping my life busy and focused.
