I'm painted pretty black...

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Im painted pretty black.  Im bad, useless, a drunk, selfish, stalking, sad, weak and not man enough.  I dont have a good job, a family, my own children, or even a car.  (which she has taken btw).  She was pretty raged at me even getting to the point of threatening with the Police.

I think shes finding new toys to play with too, so I am definately out of the picture for good!

And i did what?

[seang]

Im painted pretty black.  Im bad, useless, a drunk, selfish, stalking, sad, weak and not man enough.  I dont have a good job, a family, my own children, or even a car.  (which she has taken btw).  She was pretty raged at me even getting to the point of threatening with the Police.

I think shes finding new toys to play with too, so I am definately out of the picture for good!

And i did what?

[LostGhost]

You did nothing but be who you are, which is probably a man with morals, values and a code of principles that you adhere to. You loved someone and gave it all that you had. It still wasn't enough because nothing can feed the emotional and psychological black hole that lives inside pwBPD. You could be Bill Gates and have all the money in the world, have 10 kids, a wonderful family and home, have the patience and unconditional love of Buddha and Christ but they would find something to paint you black over eventually. And then they'd shack up with a drug addicted homeless guy that abuses her, find reasons to paint him white and the cycle repeats.

What happened is the disorder and the disorder always wins.  :'(