Third day no contact and it's so tough

[Depression = 72% of members]

I really want to send her a text or message so badly. But I know I can't. I know I shouldn't. All the texts I've sent the past three months. All the things we did together the past four three weekends.  All of it has done zero good. So why would sending that one extra text make any difference whatsoever. It wouldn't. 

I think it's that feeling that if we at least exchange an occasional text. Or do something together even if on her terms that it at least keeps us connected In some small way. It seems it offers better hope than no communication whatsoever.

But in reality it doesn't keep us connected permanently. Only enough to cause me more pain and suffering. Only enough to prolong things.

She's getting the acceptance. Love. Validation and all else she needs from the bars. From the men surrounding her there. And probably men she's been with already or wants to be with there.  She doesn't need me at all.

Only if she comes to realize how empty and shallow that life really is.   Maybe then I will hear from her.

[Scopikaz]

I really want to send her a text or message so badly. But I know I can't. I know I shouldn't. All the texts I've sent the past three months. All the things we did together the past four three weekends.  All of it has done zero good. So why would sending that one extra text make any difference whatsoever. It wouldn't. 

I think it's that feeling that if we at least exchange an occasional text. Or do something together even if on her terms that it at least keeps us connected In some small way. It seems it offers better hope than no communication whatsoever.

But in reality it doesn't keep us connected permanently. Only enough to cause me more pain and suffering. Only enough to prolong things.

She's getting the acceptance. Love. Validation and all else she needs from the bars. From the men surrounding her there. And probably men she's been with already or wants to be with there.  She doesn't need me at all.

Only if she comes to realize how empty and shallow that life really is.   Maybe then I will hear from her.

[Caley]

Read back through what you've written ... it's got a blanket of 'I'm worthless' all over it.

You are not worthless Scopi ... you just made a poor choice and tried to make a silk purse out of a pigs ear. Pull your socks up, brush off the dirt and shift into gear ... reclaim your self-respect.

She isn't what you want anyway ... she can't be if you need to change her.

You're on a direct route to emotional and financial bankruptcy.

If you eliminate all the poor choices available, what is left?

Better ones for YOU ... !