Moved from Deciding... A confession meant to hurt me.

[How to communicate after a contentious divorce...]

Im not sure if this was moved but I'm thinking I just posted on the wrong board.

Long story short, I was JUST another replacement. She recycles her child's father every so often. According to her, they are both disordered. She has even married after him but he's the come back guy. She said they have a special connection. I guess so Doing the right thing. Says he understands her needs better than anyone else bc of the disorder.  Apparently, my gut feelings were not wrong. She stays over to him or he to her. That's why the constant so called trips. Says she got her big happy family back together.  But bc they have the same disordered mind, they sort of have an open relrelationship. This is the ex she talks bad about. Small thing, cheated a lot, no money, and what not. Then in the same breath says... .you and I had a special connection, she I want to be your friend.  Red Flag. says... .I like the way you made me feel blah blah blah. I was speechless. I played it cool. Wasn't surprised. Was just stuck like looking into the cold eyes of a sociopath. No feelings at all. That's just what she does. I was always way too good for her.  Im not sure if the feelings I'm feeling will be there from this point forward. But I sure hope so. We were supposed to be friends. I'm done. She scared me, in a way.  barfy. Smelled bad.

I said nothing  much. Let her do all the talking. Then said okay thanks for telling me and walked away with my nose up in the air. I had not seen her in a long time. She looked so different. No love lost. It wasn't even real. But now my curiosity is dead.  I was NEVER wrong.  Yes!

[FallBack!Monster]

Im not sure if this was moved but I'm thinking I just posted on the wrong board.

Long story short, I was JUST another replacement. She recycles her child's father every so often. According to her, they are both disordered. She has even married after him but he's the come back guy. She said they have a special connection. I guess so Doing the right thing. Says he understands her needs better than anyone else bc of the disorder.  Apparently, my gut feelings were not wrong. She stays over to him or he to her. That's why the constant so called trips. Says she got her big happy family back together.  But bc they have the same disordered mind, they sort of have an open relrelationship. This is the ex she talks bad about. Small thing, cheated a lot, no money, and what not. Then in the same breath says... .you and I had a special connection, she I want to be your friend.  Red Flag. says... .I like the way you made me feel blah blah blah. I was speechless. I played it cool. Wasn't surprised. Was just stuck like looking into the cold eyes of a sociopath. No feelings at all. That's just what she does. I was always way too good for her.  Im not sure if the feelings I'm feeling will be there from this point forward. But I sure hope so. We were supposed to be friends. I'm done. She scared me, in a way.  barfy. Smelled bad.

I said nothing  much. Let her do all the talking. Then said okay thanks for telling me and walked away with my nose up in the air. I had not seen her in a long time. She looked so different. No love lost. It wasn't even real. But now my curiosity is dead.  I was NEVER wrong.  Yes!

[gotbushels]

Well, welcome to the JUST another replacement's area Back2Me16. 

That is one confusing story. It seems even more confusing being knotted into that. It's good when something we observe in their behaviours tells us our thinking was roughly in the right area. When we are subject to a lot of the behaviours that are part of a pwBPD's life, then I can see what you mean when you see her as a sociopath. It seems you're disgusted or nauseated to some extent. If that's so, then of course, we hope to be able to keep away from such things.

So what's next? 

[FallBack!Monster]

got,

Thanks for asking but no big plans. Just doing life the way I use to before that experience. Sorry nothing juice to share. Still got some more work to do on me.

[gotbushels]

Nothing juicy is just fine Back2Me16 

I encourage you to re-finding your hold on your life. That's a big step that we sometimes shortcut over to get back into whatever interests us. Move at your own pace.