Hi skittles22,
I'm sorry to hear that you are still experiencing anxiety. I think it can take a long time to recover from these kinds of breakups. I took me at almost a year to start feeling better, and a little more than a year to not have anxious reactions to all things connected to him. Keep in mind, my relationship was long distance and relatively short (1.5 years with a 3 month break included), so that seems pretty long, doesn't it? Things have gotten so much better for me, though, and they will for you, too. Thoughts of him still pop into my head 4 years later, but there are no uncomfortable feelings associated with that.
As for the thoughts: What have you tried to help them calm down?
What works well for me is a simple kind of meditation: sitting still, closing my eyes, and focusing on the air as it passes through my nostrils. Each time thoughts take over my mind, I gently come back to that sensation of air (it often feels cool coming in and warm going out). Just ten minutes of that and I feel wonderful.
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Another idea is just noticing that your thoughts are something that happens. You don't control them, and hopefully they don't control you. They just float in and eventually float out. It's the
attaching to them that can cause all manner of suffering. So, one tip I read was to say to yourself something like, "
I'm having the thought that my ex didn't love me" or "
I'm having the thought that I'll never recover from this breakup" and then feel what comes up and let the sensations move through you. Saying "I'm having" helps us to remember that we are not our thoughts; they arise and recede of their own accord, and if we don't attach to them they tend to have less power over our emotional states.
Anything sound interesting there, skittles22?
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