Hello my name is Terry I'm new here so please bear with me I also hate sites that you have to interact with but I'm close to losing my mind.
About 4 weeks ago I came home form work walked in the bedroom to say hello to the wife and she informed me that my our daughter was in hospital. my daughters (mother) was sitting there beer in hand doing some paper work for a new job. anyway I left the house with out stopping for anything I drove literally as quick as I can to the hospital and I found my daughter she was there in the walkway due to no beds she looked extremely tired and was on a drip her arms were exposed and I could see some fresh cut marks but not seen before burns to her skin. (Heartbroken) is not the word she is my absolute world.
I sat on the floor kneeing beside her for hours when finally a nurse slipped up and I found out the my daughter was in hospital for taking an overdose. I had been asking her what the reason is that she's there but she wouldn't say. I also found out that it's my daughter that called the ambulance herself.
while in hospital my baby was getting more down more than she ever was at home.
she broke down into tears onto my shoulder and asked me to take her home but there was nothing I could do I didn't want to take her back home incase she did something like this again but also didn't want her in hospital in the waiting area either. In the end my baby was sectioned and was taken to Maudsley psychiatric hospital. I stayed be my daughters side 3 days straight coolant eat a thing didn't drink just stayed with my baby trying my best to take her pain away. we walked around the hospital with a security guy following us and I bought her lots of food trying to keep her feed its was all I could think of doing to make her pain go away even for a short while. I also knew she wasn't eating a great deal before going into hospital. she would go for a period not eating then binge on just rubbish. but I didn't know how she was feeling inside.
She was only in hospital for 2 weeks before I brought her home there were some really unwell people in there and they were making her worse.
since being at home with myself, mother, and brother she has had ups and downs one day she's my normal happy sweet kind caring daughter the next she can just wake up as someone else I cant give her a kiss good bye or talk to her.
for the last two days she been great really happy and positive talking about future goals she wants to learn to drive, and join the forensics with the police. massive positivity. she stayed at her friends house last night which is 100ft away from our house
but she was texting me last night very happy then today she was happy she bought herself a new iPad and we were setting it up together she went with her friend to her friends house and was planning to stay again I gave her some meds to take with her and then she came home 15 minutes later in a zombie like state her friend brought her back in a split second I knew it was something to do with her girlfriend. she went dizzy and was about to pass out but I took hold of her sat her down and got her som cold water. after prompting her I told her I knew it was something do with her girlfriend then she hurts into tears and told me that her girlfriend has just done the same as my daughter did and taken an overdose and my daughter is blaming herself.
I held her and told her it's not her fault she's not to blame.
she told me that she cant end things with her because she's scared that her girlfriend will do something to herself. my daughter told me that she feels like her girlfriend is leaching off of her own feelings and emotions.
How do I get my daughter to walk away from this toxic relationship they haven't even meet in person just on the phone all the time.
I might add that my daughter is 18yrs old she has BDP and I'm sure she gets at least 50-60% of her personality traits from me although I have never been tested for anything I've always known somethings wrong and now Ive passed it on to my baby. she is my world what can I do to help be happy as much as possible.
sorry for the rant I've got so much on my mind not just my daughter with BDP but I also have a daughter in the navy and a son who's a twat but in a nice way
sometimes most of the time I feel overwhelmed and lost myself due to the amount I'm worrying about my daughter I call her through the day and check her location like a paranoid dad but I cant help it I just want her to be happy and safe
