hi and welcome to the site. I am glad you found us but sorry for what brought you here. As you read and post more you will see that you are not alone and that many have been in similar situations. The good part of being on this type of board is that you can build a support system of people who can pass on what they have learned and also, as you respond to others you can gain insight into your own situation. So again, I am glad you are here.
What sort of behaviors is she engaging in that makes you feel like you have been controlled and manipulated?
The most worrying thing now having researched the disorder, I have realised that I have made many decisions based on fear! So I feel hopeless and I don’t know what to do.
This is an important realization and it is a behavior we can help you with as you learn to use tools and communication strategies that can help you not to act (or react) in fear. As you share more, we can help guide you.
Are you in a position where you can get help for yourself? What about your wife? Is she in therapy? Since she knows about her disorder, is that something she would be willing to do while unable to take her medications? Has she ever been to therapy?
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EDIT: I cross posted with livednlearned, sorry for the repetition... .