It is over. Shouldn't I feel something?

[Doughboy]

Not trying to Better or Improve the relationship. 4th time through and it was over more than a month ago. She self admitted to Hospital 4 days before Christmas and then did 6 weeks of DBT intensive. At the end of that I was described as an Abuser, gas lighter, never cared, etc.

At this point I figure I should be feeling some sadness or loss.  I don't. Figured maybe it would take some time to settle in but it hasn't. No confusion, no panic, no chasing, no sadness. Just a feeling of...nothing. I kinda knew it wouldn't last when we got back together in August. Maybe I was never fully in this time and that is the reason for the lack of emotion now.

Not sure...just not sure

[Skip]

At some point, we have just had enough and we let go.

You have a long history. You've been through a lot. You have sacrificed your own emotions on many occasions. Maybe you are just out of gas.

[Doughboy]

That is what think it is also. Especially with the smear campaign.

Just starting to worry that maybe something was wrong with me and would be wrong going forward in life...