Back into No Contact - For Good Pt. 2

[Depression = 72% of members]

Had an awesome Christmas with my son, and Father.

Woke up today absolutely brimming with anger, for no apparent reason.

Trying to recenter myself before work.

I haven't woken up this angry in weeks, if not months. I cannot begin to speculate as to why and that irritates me even further

Hey buddy.  I sometimes do that as well and I don't know why; I can't control my sleep though and what I might dream about (and not remember).  Just give it time.

[Pook075]

Had an awesome Christmas with my son, and Father.

Woke up today absolutely brimming with anger, for no apparent reason.

Trying to recenter myself before work.

I haven't woken up this angry in weeks, if not months. I cannot begin to speculate as to why and that irritates me even further

Hey buddy.  I sometimes do that as well and I don't know why; I can't control my sleep though and what I might dream about (and not remember).  Just give it time.

[OKrunch]

Trying to have a chill day, the "Gut Feeling / Spidey Sense" is BONKERS today.

[SinisterComplex]

Trying to have a chill day, the "Gut Feeling / Spidey Sense" is BONKERS today.

How and why so? Care to elaborate or rather just leave it be?

Cheers and Best Wishes!

-SC-

[OKrunch]

How and why so? Care to elaborate or rather just leave it be?

Cheers and Best Wishes!

-SC-

I wish I knew! That's the most stupefying thing about this whole gut feeling situation that I experience. I've been having nothing but great days lately, the lead up to and the actual day of Christmas we're all phenomenal. I always be getting to think that I wouldn't feel this gut feeling anymore, that perhaps the connection finally faded and died.

I woke up about an hour before my alarm this morning, and immediately was overwhelmed by a wave of strong anger (that I could not for the life of me place the source of within my own life. I had a fantastic Christmas day with my father and my son, and went to bed in a great mood ) This is tremendously bizarre for me, I don't have to be into work until 9:30 in the morning and I have a tendency to stay up fairly late at night. Getting out of bed is usually a slow process for me. This is only the second time ever that the gut feeling has pulled me out of sleep. The only other time was the day she found out her grandfather had passed away and they were quite close. This was during our first breakup/separation.

The feeling was persistent and very strong all through the morning, and then faded to what I would describe as a two or three out of 10 after noon and through till now. Still feeling it, but it's now quite mild.

That's the most confusing thing about all of this, is because it's very difficult to understand interpret or make guesses about.

I have tried several methods of cord cutting and other types of cleansing type of meditations to be rid of this.

I know to a lot of you that must sound downright crazy, it still does to me if I talk about it outside my own inner narrative, but it's part of my experience, and has in the past been an accurate and consistent one.

[OKrunch]

Energy / Gut feeling persisted all through the night last night.
I find when it is that strong, it saps my energy. I slept on the couch from like 5:30-8:30 last night, woke up still feeling it but not nearly as strong.

Persisted mildly until mid-morning today.

Man, whatever this is sure slows the healing. Annoying.

[SinisterComplex]

I wish I knew! That's the most stupefying thing about this whole gut feeling situation that I experience. I've been having nothing but great days lately, the lead up to and the actual day of Christmas we're all phenomenal. I always be getting to think that I wouldn't feel this gut feeling anymore, that perhaps the connection finally faded and died.

I woke up about an hour before my alarm this morning, and immediately was overwhelmed by a wave of strong anger (that I could not for the life of me place the source of within my own life. I had a fantastic Christmas day with my father and my son, and went to bed in a great mood ) This is tremendously bizarre for me, I don't have to be into work until 9:30 in the morning and I have a tendency to stay up fairly late at night. Getting out of bed is usually a slow process for me. This is only the second time ever that the gut feeling has pulled me out of sleep. The only other time was the day she found out her grandfather had passed away and they were quite close. This was during our first breakup/separation.

The feeling was persistent and very strong all through the morning, and then faded to what I would describe as a two or three out of 10 after noon and through till now. Still feeling it, but it's now quite mild.

That's the most confusing thing about all of this, is because it's very difficult to understand interpret or make guesses about.

I have tried several methods of cord cutting and other types of cleansing type of meditations to be rid of this.

I know to a lot of you that must sound downright crazy, it still does to me if I talk about it outside my own inner narrative, but it's part of my experience, and has in the past been an accurate and consistent one.

Mmm...not crazy. You are venting and sharing your experience. No judgment here from any of us I am fairly certain. You are doing what you need to do and sharing your feelings and experience. It is your own journey and you are on your own timeline.

Cheers and Best Wishes!

-SC-