I ran into my ex on the weekend. You would think I had the BPD. I just looked at her blankly and did not engage in any conversation. On the inside I am concerned about reengaging, getting into an argument. The non contact works for the best. When contact is unavoidable , I just walk away refuse to engage in any conversation.
I think this has thrown her for a loop as she is used to me engaging in conversation, using my feelings to manipulate me. Now I am dead man walking. I just walk by her when I see her. It's tough, but I do have to admit it is better for me. When I engage in conversation, I always end up upset.
I'm the same. After he left me heartbroken- after some time had passed, I was able to try and chat with him. It was always me he started conversation. In one instance, he tried to walk right by me and I stopped him and said hello. He looked shocked and awkward. In another conversation, I told him I didn't hate him. He looked confused by that too. The last time I tried to initiate conversation it appeared he wanted nothing to do with me. He had someone else. He took her to the three places that we would go to the most. Now, if I see him, I make no attempts. It's so hard, but I don't know what else to do. He always manipulated my words and my feelings as well- to make me look like the bad person.
