Hi all,
I had a great very vivid dream last night where I was at work (old job as a manager). I was filling in for another manager. I was getting the store ready, and the staff was helpful-although all strangers to me.(typical IRL)
At the point of opening the store-several other Managers/Asst. Managers show up-just barge on in and start trying to help!
They were friendly yet overly insistent. There was at least 3-4 people too many, and trying to be "in charge". All female.
I had to send some away-and I did so assertively and firmly. That would have been my "normal" attitude at work, anyways. I was a very good manager and later an area/regional supervisor.
One woman was very scattered and had several time sheets that were a literal mess, stapled together-we never use staples on those docs.
She was trying so hard to stick around and be super helpful-but I told her in no uncertain terms that she had to leave-we didn't need her help and she had to straighten up those time sheets.
I guess I am trying to remind myself that I can do what I Need to do, and all I need to do is look at my past behaviors to SEE that!
That's important now, as I found out my stbxBPDh has made an appt to see a psych dr. That had been my requirement for Staying Together-and we are a few months from divorce, right now.
I wonder what he's up to... . if he's trying to engineer a recycle? Perhaps he just can't seem to feel OK at all- that he's finally realized that his drastic moves the past few months didn't fix his life. Not the way he expected, in his fantasy land mind. that's sad.
I feel the utmost compassion for his struggle. I do.
But I am OK, on my own.
GL
