Counting my blessings

[Tired of it]

I see stories of those who have children with the ex's or have been married and have had horrible experiences much worse than my own.  I am fortunate to not have moved in with my ex despite the numerous attempts to get me to do so.  I am fortunate to not have any children with this person either.  The only thing I have are wasted years and I can only blame myself for not wanting to give up the sexual and clingy nature that I like.  I can't understand why I am so upset about it but then again maybe it is because I allowed myself to be treated like that and I feel like a fool.  If I had women knocking down my doorstep, I probably wouldn't even care but it is just the fact that I am by myself while she is doing whatever or whomever.  I believe all of our problems are just that we are alone and we aren't able to pick up with another woman as quickly as our ex.  There are plenty of us that are not on this board who have had the same experiences.  The difference is that the other guys/girls were able to find another gf/bf after their BPD ex and we haven't.  I have met a few girls that nothing materialized and that is when I found myself down again but I was cool while I was chilling with them.  Think about it.  I still have to count my blessings.  I have never been married, no kids, and although i'm 37 i'm still young enough to accomplish that goal.  Maybe it was a great thing that I didn't do it with this one.