Today is a new day. I think it is important to sometimes think beyond the grief and the pain and try to come to some acceptance and truly see the positives as well.
Yes, the relationship was tainted with pain and dysfunction. Yes, it hurt like hell at times especially when the man I LOVED was hurting me in ways I never imagined he would.
I'm trying to look beyond that and understand that there was and is a reason that this happened. I know I needed some self assessment and needed to grow myself and this relationship will allow that to happen. Even with all the pain, there was a lot of wonderful experiences interspersed throughout the relationship that I will treasure forever. I have to believe and remember that this man that I loved... . although he didn't truly love me... . is a victim himself. He was victimized at a very young age and never intended to hurt me... . he is just trying to survive the only way he knows how. Thankfully, I was wise enough to remove myself so I can move forward and live again. I am sad for him but he lives in a world of oblivion so he truly will continue to be happy in his own way.
I have the chance for a new beginning and for that, I am grateful. I am counting my blessings today. Thank you letting me just open up and say whats on my mind.
I hope you have a great day
