Confessions and then denial

[Depression = 72% of members]

I still scratch my head at a lot of the things my stbex said - but then when I point them out latter she will completely dey she said them.  Here are a few examples.

1. I haven't loved you or respected you for years - I love you with my whole heart

2. I wish I could just melt in the ground a dissappear - I would never consider hurting myself

3. It takes all my energy just to get through the day

4. I don't know who I am - I've always known who I am

5. I've always been the person you want me to be

6. I am just a shell of a person

7. I can't find God - I have such a deep connection with God now

8.  Your my best friend - now I have true friends

9. We are just friends (her and her EA)

10. I shut my heart out to you - for this reason, a day latter a different reason, a day latter a different one yet.

11. I hate you - I don't really hate you

12. I thought we were soulmates - I know you'll find your soulmate

13. I'm sad, broke, lonely and homeless.  next day I'm getting along great

14. I'm sorry for my texts yesterday - next day don't call or text me ever - or I'll contact the attorney.

15. I put a mountian between us - you never gave me time to love you again

16. You know the best how my mind works - I don't have any issues

17 This doesn't have anything to do with my past - I think this has to do with my past.

[cal644]

I still scratch my head at a lot of the things my stbex said - but then when I point them out latter she will completely dey she said them.  Here are a few examples.

1. I haven't loved you or respected you for years - I love you with my whole heart

2. I wish I could just melt in the ground a dissappear - I would never consider hurting myself

3. It takes all my energy just to get through the day

4. I don't know who I am - I've always known who I am

5. I've always been the person you want me to be

6. I am just a shell of a person

7. I can't find God - I have such a deep connection with God now

8.  Your my best friend - now I have true friends

9. We are just friends (her and her EA)

10. I shut my heart out to you - for this reason, a day latter a different reason, a day latter a different one yet.

11. I hate you - I don't really hate you

12. I thought we were soulmates - I know you'll find your soulmate

13. I'm sad, broke, lonely and homeless.  next day I'm getting along great

14. I'm sorry for my texts yesterday - next day don't call or text me ever - or I'll contact the attorney.

15. I put a mountian between us - you never gave me time to love you again

16. You know the best how my mind works - I don't have any issues

17 This doesn't have anything to do with my past - I think this has to do with my past.

[Rose Tiger]

Sounds about right.  Emotional memory is very short term, like that movie 50 First Dates.  How they feel right now is how they always felt.  I can get annoyed with my teen but I will never forget how I felt when she was born, or forget how much I love her.  It's scary to think about experiencing emotions getting wiped out regarding the past, say with a car accident injury or something.

[willy45]

Yup.

Same thing here. Almost exactly:

I'm a happy, balanced person: I have the emotional status of a teenager

I am doing so great: I am the most miserable I have ever been

I love my job: I hate my job

I love you: You are a jerk

And on and on and on.

[cal644]

That emotional memmory is soo confusing to me - when we were splitting she told me she couldn't remember any happy memories this last year.  I gave her a ton of examples and she said oh yea I forgot about all of those things ... .