I tried to contact him :(

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I believe my ex loved me, but she could not sustain it.  It triggered her illness, so she would back away, again and again.  Horrible to go through, for us and for them.

[Phoenix.Rising]

I believe my ex loved me, but she could not sustain it.  It triggered her illness, so she would back away, again and again.  Horrible to go through, for us and for them.

[laelle]

I think when I got too close to mine, he would decide to take something the wrong way and just dump me.   

[seeking balance]

So what your saying is that I love him at this moment and he ceased to love me a 11 am on March 19th?

Not quite that literally, but kinda actually.  Acting loving in the absence of emotion is something Scott Peck discusses in The Road Less Traveled.  Since pwBPD are emotionally driven and intimate attachments are triggers - your quote is somewhat true - just keep in mind as quickly as it can swing to this, it can swing back the other way as well.

At the end of the day - the kind of relationship you want, it doesn't sound like this person was really able to give you.  It is painful to breakup, but - when someone shows you who they are... . we really should believe them.

[laelle]

Yeah, all sickness aside their are alot of other problems that make this relationship difficult.  Not impossible, but would take 2 steady minds to put together.  As he refuses to see a psych when he knows he has BPD, I dont really see him as being able to take any serious responsibility for the future.  I cant do it for both of us, he has to want it too.  I think all he wants is to not be alone.  He doesnt need me for that.