Getting grateful for my BPD

[fromheeltoheal]

Yes, she mirrored me, idolized, manipulated, devalued, and abused me, and treated me to her own special brand of continuous chaos.  And I was totally naive and didn't know what was going on, only that it hurt like hell.  Well, having given it some time and learned a lot about BPD traits here and elsewhere, I've learned it must be hell in her head, I hope she finds some lasting peace, and I'm getting grateful for the experience.

Why was I attracted to her in the first place?  Why did I ignore a boatload of red flags?  Why did I think an obsession that was abusive was 'love'?  Why did I forge on trying to rescue and fix her?  Why did I interpret a need to be needed as love?

Lots of questions, lots of work, but thanks sweetheart, I've grown already, and am asking questions I might not have if you hadn't blown into and then out of my life.  Work I wasn't expecting, with a hope that I will grow profoundly as I do it.  Thanks sweetheart.

[blecker]

Your attitude is wonderful.

With such perspective you can only benefit from any experience you incur.