Ok. If she doesn't value our long distance friendship, there"s no chance that something more can grow.
I'm kinda proud of staying away from "well maybe" phrases.
But she's welcome to write. I hope she does.
I think you are handling this quite well though your thoughts seem a little muddled.
She must be very special for you to be continuing to maintain the long distance friendship. She doesn't seem to want to - instead wants all or nothing. How long do you think you will need to keep this rather risky tie to someone who has treated you so poorly?