It's cool

[Perfidy]

It's like 70 below. I just walked. My head is so clear right now. I started off in the usual crap when I woke up. I know I went through a mental process to get to this point. I did a quick setback and I came to this... . I'm alright. I'm going to have a good day.

[Jbt857]

Feels nice, doesn't it?

And they kinda snowball, those good days. When I compare how far I've come in the past few months, I'm amazed. He's no longer my first waking thought. He crosses my mind every day in some way, but the same pain isn't there.

Keep going. 

[Perfidy]

Feels nice, doesn't it?

And they kinda snowball, those good days. When I compare how far I've come in the past few months, I'm amazed. He's no longer my first waking thought. He crosses my mind every day in some way, but the same pain isn't there.

Keep going. 

It certainly frees me up to be able to deal with what's in front of me.

[Perfidy]

One low spot today. This afternoon. An incident where I was confronted by someone having a bad day. Shook it off pretty quick. Other than that a pretty good day. Trying to nail down the reasons I have good days and then try to reproduce those conditions. I wish I knew more. The only thing that bothers me now is the cyclic thinking. The rumination. Most of the depression is gone. What depression I do get is mild and doesn't last long. Stupid brain! Think it's time for a nice walk.

[RecycledNoMore]

I know what you both mean, ive been having a run of good days lately, it kind of makes me wonder if im going to hit a wall soon... . but even if I do I think ill be able to handle it, a few months ago I thought well, that A.I would be in the nearest mental health facility B. in jail for premed murder.C. cloud surfing

What has helped you ?

[ucmeicu2]

Trying to nail down the reasons I have good days and then try to reproduce those conditions. I wish I knew more. The only thing that bothers me now is the cyclic thinking. The rumination. Most of the depression is gone. What depression I do get is mild and doesn't last long. Stupid brain! Think it's time for a nice walk.

hi perfidy ~ well you know you're on the right track with moving your body, walking, light exercise, or demonic workout at the gym  hehe  whichever is your current speed.

did you happen to ever see/try something i posted a couple weeks ago?  a technique my T taught me ~ works well for me.  when you catch yourself ruminating/having intrusive thoughts/etc make a karate chop from your head, sweeping down towards the ground.  it's like your cutting a swath through the circular clouds going round your brain.  sharp movement with a sharp loud "STOP!".  it sure gets my attention!    and then immediately DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT - change activities or whatever.

[Perfidy]

I'm willing to try just about anything but if I get arrested I'm giving them YOUR names!

[ucmeicu2]

I'm willing to try just about anything but if I get arrested I'm giving them YOUR names!

oh yeah well... .   did i forget to mention that if you're around people you should say the "STOP" part  quietly to yourself?    vewwy, vewwy quietwy 

[Jbt857]

Here hee, what a fab mental image!   - I just woke up and you made me smile - good start to the day.

[Perfidy]

Well... This morning about an inch of snow was covering the sheet ice that had been formed by the high winds and arctic temperatures. Fluffy fresh powder snow. Walking. Now this stuff is slick. I felt like a little kid learning how to walk. I was ready to fall on my butt. I managed to stay upright although there were a couple of pucker moments where I slipped but didn't fall. Can't tell you how much this short walk of a mile compares to my healing.