I don't know what to do. The silence, the boredom... I guess time takes time but I'ts been long enough now. I sure would like to talk to her.
I also get those same feelings where I want to reach out to my ex at times, but I also realize I've been looking at the relationship through rose-coloured glasses. That's when I have to remind myself of all the selfish one-sided stunts my ex pulled while we where together. So far that's what has helped me overcome the urge to re-engage her.
I've also been told that focusing more on work, picking up a hobby, volunteering, spending more times with friends, or anything else that gets your mind off of your ex will help towards alleviate the loneliness that results from missing her. You may even want to look into getting a few sessions of counselling to help get past this.
In the end, you're the only one who can decide whether it's worth it to re-enter an abusive relationship. Personally, I can't tolerate living with someone who is selfish and abusive, so anything I can do to add just one more day towards staying NC, will go towards my goal of never getting back with my ex.
