I feel like screaming today...

[GuiltHaunted]

Having a bad day... .   :'(

Feel like screaming. Her birthday is coming up in 2 days, and all the events leading up to the breakup is approaching 1 year. I don't know what to do.

I haven't cried like today in months.

[GuiltHaunted]

I feel like I am a thousand years old and have been carrying this pain for decades.

[Surnia]

I am so sorry to hear that. 

Sometimes it happens that a lot of memories are coming back and a lot of emotions with it.

You asked what to do: Can you be with your pain for some moments?

You will find peace again.

We are here for you, GH. 

[GuiltHaunted]

I am going to work in a few hours. Which is a good thing, this the only place where she in not bothering me in my mind.

I didn't see her since July last year. Somehow it feels like I can't close this chapter before I meet her face to face again. I have been in NC since the end of December. I don't know if it would be wise for me to resume contact with her or not.

[Cardinals in Flight]

I'm sorry, I'm where you are today, big hugs.

My X has a birthday that is significant in a few months and I know even right now that it will be a hard day.  No use projecting that far though, it's all out of our hands, everything is really.

Snoopy is her favorite, .

Hang in there

CiF

[heartandwhole]

GuiltHaunted,

I'm sorry you are in so much pain.  Detaching is hard, and some days are just terrible.  I remember feeling that way, too. 

I didn't see her since July last year. Somehow it feels like I can't close this chapter before I meet her face to face again. I have been in NC since the end of December. I don't know if it would be wise for me to resume contact with her or not.

Have you thought about your reasons for wanting to contact/see her again?  Do you think it will give you closure, so that you can move on in your life, or do you deep down wish to restart a relationship with her? 

Feel your feelings and think carefully about what is behind this urge before acting on it.  Keep the focus on you, it will help you detach. From Stage number 2 on the right panel–––––––––––>

Start by probing the feelings and the thoughts that drive the desire or grief or hopelessness in your consciousness, perhaps naming it to yourself (e... g., fear, weakness, disappointment, false hope, etc), and gradually come to understand who you are, who you have been. Explore the energy in the feelings. As you go deeper into this energy, its knotty, sticky quality will start to dissolve—for the time being.

Can you do something wonderful just for yourself on her birthday?  See some friends?

We're here for you.