2015?

[AwakenedOne]

Where do some of the members of the Leaving Board see yourselves being in a year from now?

What are some goals and dreams that you see could realistically happen in the next year if all goes well?

If these goals and dreams could come true what would a taste of your life be in the year 2015?

Happy 2015!

I now will have almost no thoughts of my ex, this will save me money due to less aspirin intake.

I now will have a consant understanding of lessens learned to not repeat past mistakes.

I now will have my dream job or will be on the way to my dream job or have an alternative dream job.

I now will be dating a great girl who is healthy,nice and cute and taking it slow.

I now will have more faith in God instead of letting things of the unknown stress me out as much.

I now will be in college furthering my education.

I now will have better financial stability.

I now will be living with a purpose 24/7.

*If none of this good stuff above happens, my back up plan is to just build a treehouse in the woods and hide from the world there. Next, I will acquire some imaginary friends to keep me company in the woods. I think I'll name my first imaginary friend Elmer. I will survive off of eating nuts and berries in the woods. Unfortunately every time I see a nut it will remind me of my ex. I will hope and be on guard that my ex doesn't ever go looking in the forest for me in an attempt to recycle me. If she does I will communicate with the forest creatures to scare her away. This will be done only of course after I have mastered the art of speaking to the forest creatures in their individual animal languages. I will also remove the letters b,p and d out of my remembered alphabet. My new alphabet will consist of only 23 nice letters. I will refer to bee's now as ee's instead due to my past BPD "relationship" trauma.

[Red Sky]

Firstly... . It'll be 'relationshi trauma'. 

I WILL have made new friends... . This is non-negotiable, and something which occasionally requires me to push out of my comfort zone. But I need more people in my life so that I'm not as dependent on the few that I have.

I will continue to be as confident and secure within myself as I have started to be in 2014. I hope that this will stay with me, because I have realized how much it transforms my life to value myself.

I'll be finishing my Masters degree. I'm fairly confident that I will have done well because I have always been a tremendous swot. I will hopefully do better as a result of not having relationship drama to deal with, but The Law Of RedSky dictates nothing in life gets more priority than studying. Not even relationships. I am kind of proud of this, the knowledge that my education will always be there to open the door to a new life if I want it to.

As for what comes after that... . That is where my life gets uncertain. I love my home country, where I am studying next year. BUT all the bad things in my life seem to have happened to me there. I've spent a year away from my home country and I feel so much better. Even though I'm working hard now, life always feels a little bit surreal, like a holiday in a sunny foreign land. My family want me to stay in my home country. I love them, but I fear not seeing the world and being stuck in the place I came from forever almost as much as I fear not having a good relationship with my family.

But... . Who knows how I will feel in a year? I'm trying to line up a job for 2015 at the moment and it is very hard to know how I'll feel. I feel like a different person than I did a year ago and I suspect that I will feel very different in another year.