So the last couple of days I have been doing well, then last night I had a vivid dream/nightmare. Dreams are hard to recall, but I was working in an office with my ex. When she nipped out, I took her phone and ran out to look for evidence of her cheating while she was with me. I found none. She caught up with me and I confronted her. She admitted it with a big smile. I pinned her to a wall and was about to hit her and I woke up. I know that not knowing the truth about her cheating or when she met my replacement is still troubling me, and I do wish I had been much more suspicious.
It's just a dream but it shook me up - it felt like NC was broken and today was tough. I cant tell anyone this, it sounds ludicrous. Has anyone else had unsettling dreams about there exes?
Yes I do Camuse. I often wake with a vivid dream of my ex. Not bad dreams just being there with him. Although Im doing all the things I need to move to full detachment, the reality is I was left while still very much in love with him. I think its okay to acknowledge that I will always carry that love bc for me it was genuine. All the learning aside. The subconscious cant suppress that. Why dreams remain.