I finally left him for good.

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Hi,

Sorry that I haven't been in touch in a while but being with my exBPD husband was, how do I put it, there were times that I acted more depressed than I

was so my psychotherapist would hospitalize me, it was a vacation away from him.  I tried to make my marriage work, I gave him 3 chances.  He was much sicker than I realized not only was he BPD but he was also a sociopath, very delusional.

The last straw was on July 16th, it doesn't seem like much but you have to remember when you are accused of being unfaithful, using drugs, being isolated from your family and friends, being checked on by verifying places that I told him that I had went.

Anyway, he came in waking me out of bed screaming at me, which is nothing new accusing me of using this H&RBLLOCK  card that hadn't even been activated, I told him that we are going to call and get the balance over speakerphone,  he wouldn't do it.  I thought to myself, life is TOO short , I will not live like this anymore. 


I made it out the door screaming,  nobody was around but he's on probation so he couldn't be anywhere around.  I called 911 to have a police escort to get my things out of the house.  The only thing that is breaking my heart is how much I miss my dog.  I dont have the means to have her .  Sorry, I can't think of her without crying.



I do have a life now, I have the peace in the shower that I loved without having to text him and let him know if I don't answer thats why.


I'm not afraid to go up to the  grocery store wout coming home to insane accusations.  I don't have to live with a pathological liar, 43 old man that lives off his mother, I saw the red flags but chose to ignore them

[raven9171]

Hi,

Sorry that I haven't been in touch in a while but being with my exBPD husband was, how do I put it, there were times that I acted more depressed than I

was so my psychotherapist would hospitalize me, it was a vacation away from him.  I tried to make my marriage work, I gave him 3 chances.  He was much sicker than I realized not only was he BPD but he was also a sociopath, very delusional.

The last straw was on July 16th, it doesn't seem like much but you have to remember when you are accused of being unfaithful, using drugs, being isolated from your family and friends, being checked on by verifying places that I told him that I had went.

Anyway, he came in waking me out of bed screaming at me, which is nothing new accusing me of using this H&RBLLOCK  card that hadn't even been activated, I told him that we are going to call and get the balance over speakerphone,  he wouldn't do it.  I thought to myself, life is TOO short , I will not live like this anymore. 


I made it out the door screaming,  nobody was around but he's on probation so he couldn't be anywhere around.  I called 911 to have a police escort to get my things out of the house.  The only thing that is breaking my heart is how much I miss my dog.  I dont have the means to have her .  Sorry, I can't think of her without crying.



I do have a life now, I have the peace in the shower that I loved without having to text him and let him know if I don't answer thats why.


I'm not afraid to go up to the  grocery store wout coming home to insane accusations.  I don't have to live with a pathological liar, 43 old man that lives off his mother, I saw the red flags but chose to ignore them

[Hope0807]

Congratulations.  You sound strong.  Please stay that way.