Well here I am again trying to break free of her.I caved in on Saturday.
She called me and called me crying and crying.She said she needed to see me and talk.I was strong but then got weak with all the normal fake tears and her telling me she loved me so very much.
I invited her over and we had a talk.I just new something was not adding up and it was a lot of ''acting'' and ''drama'' with the fake tears and whinning.As usual I fell for it and gave her 300.00.
She promised to get help and see a T and do what she had to do for us and daughter and the puppie.I fell into the trap and agreed.She seemed so willing and sincere.
After she left me sunday she disappeared again and the whole lying started over again.She said she was home cleaning but she was not home.I had this weird feeling and drove there.Low and behold,no car.
She was lying to me on text and she did not even no I was in her driveway(
).So this led to her saying every rotton thing to make it appear to be my fault and I will never trust her.
She was gone all day and night.She abandoned the daughter and puppie also.I can't believe I fell for this again.Maybe I will learn my lesson through all this TORMENT and PAIN I seem to put myself through.
Letting go of her has been so hard and NC has been hell for me.I am so sick that she could bed down another man and I would forgive her.This is ridiculous on my part and sick.It's like an addiction I can't seem to get away from.
Please help me.I am stuck and so lost anymore I feel like dying.Why me.?.How did I end up in this mess and this pain from her.?.I miss her my puppie and daughter.
