Seeing her after 6 months

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

Hi all! I thought I was getting better, but this saturday, when I saw her with her gringo male friends, I felt like a thousand knifes went through me! Awful feeling... .A friend that was with me, told What the heck... .You're white as a cadáver... .what's wrong? It was exacly the same feeling I had... .dead inside. He did the right thing, we went some other place.

It's been 6 months after the first and only one tried recycle. It's been a long journey! Almost a year since started the desavaluation. The recicle atempted was end of july, beginning of august. Since then I did everything to keep the mind ocuppied, doesn't do the job, did some cocaine, and now some grass, tried to the everything to fill the void... .Grass smoking is keeping me more focus, relaxed, and it's the only way that I keep my mind of the "obsession" from this crazy ass b#$"!

I guess I have to protect myself, seeing was a big big trigger. The constant ruminating started again... .BTW, the thing that makes me regret and don't understand the situation, was the words spoken and the intensity of the RS. It was all a big lie! That's kills me inside!

Thanks!

[Darkvoid]

Hi all! I thought I was getting better, but this saturday, when I saw her with her gringo male friends, I felt like a thousand knifes went through me! Awful feeling... .A friend that was with me, told What the heck... .You're white as a cadáver... .what's wrong? It was exacly the same feeling I had... .dead inside. He did the right thing, we went some other place.

It's been 6 months after the first and only one tried recycle. It's been a long journey! Almost a year since started the desavaluation. The recicle atempted was end of july, beginning of august. Since then I did everything to keep the mind ocuppied, doesn't do the job, did some cocaine, and now some grass, tried to the everything to fill the void... .Grass smoking is keeping me more focus, relaxed, and it's the only way that I keep my mind of the "obsession" from this crazy ass b#$"!

I guess I have to protect myself, seeing was a big big trigger. The constant ruminating started again... .BTW, the thing that makes me regret and don't understand the situation, was the words spoken and the intensity of the RS. It was all a big lie! That's kills me inside!

Thanks!

[CloseToFreedom]

I know the feeling. Two years ago when we were seperated again, after two weeks I saw her in the pub. I shouldve went away immediately but I stayed for an hour, getting glimpses of her having fun with other guys. I got home and tried to kill myself.

Now that we're split up again, I'm avoiding her like the plague. I know I cant handle seeing her right now. I don't want to fall in an even bigger depression.

[going places]

The house sold... .so I will have to see him at the closing table mid Feb.

Last time I saw him was July 2014... .so it will be 7 months.

EMAILING with him makes me sick to my stomach... .I have had to talk to him 2 times on the phone in the last 2 weeks (because of the offer on the house) and hearing his voice makes me physically ill.

I AM NOT looking forward to 'seeing him' in Feb. NOT one bit.

WHAT does it take to be able to 'see' the person that did so much damage AND NOT lose your bearing?

[downwhim]

Going places, title companies will be happy to accommodate you in some states so you do not have to sign at the same time as your ex. Find out what the laws are in your state or country.

It is devastating I am sure to run exs that have done so much damage. The last time I saw mine going on 3 months ago we were engaged. I am moving to avoid seeing him but can't until June and I fear all the time in our small area we will bump into one another. He has been dating someone for 4 months so I am the last thing on his mind. I was also POOF-gone after 8 years.

Cruel is the only way I can describe them.