Humble and feeling like life is getting better...

[christin5433]

Been on a up swing from a tremendous blow during holidays thought I'd never escape the FOG and anger. Life is no chaos been doing things that have made me change .

Praying daily for all resentments meaning praying for others .

Going to the gym several times a week.

Reading inspirational books daily .

Doing daily things and being in the moment .

Not looking for any things to make me feel different in a bad way.

Keeping humble and not being angry at things done to me .

Looking at some of my bad decisions w open mind

Being kind w myself and letting myself feel

2.5 months there is hope.

How are others ?

[billypilgrim]

I'll play.

I'm enjoying the calm and the new routine of my life. 

I've had my fair share of dark days and dark moments but things are vastly better from where I was with my ex.

I'm working out again and playing soccer more. 

I've lost 26 pounds in the 4 months since we split.

The anger is gone.

The depression/sadness rears it's ugly head only rarely, usually when I stop taking care of myself.

The bargaining probably lingers the most but even that is getting less and less.

I received a bonus and a promotion at work.

I'm listening to myself more as I seem be starting to figure out how to do that.

I've thought about dating - I know I'm not ready - but I've thought about it as a few friends have mentioned setting me up.

I'm starting to become less critical of myself in regards to my relationship - so I guess that means I'm getting closer to accepting that it is was it is.  I'm finally starting to believe everything that I've learned about this disorder.

4 months and there's a lot to be hopeful for.

[christin5433]

 Billy

26 lbs that's great! I've lost too about 10lbs which is what I was wanting go figure.

I think things are less crappy since the chaos has been eliminated .

Spring is here. Or soon to be.

I'm so appreciative for all the posts I've read here to help me learn that this is the way it goes w a pwBPD. Just a chronic mess w some fantasy in between.

On a break hope to hear from you:)

[DyingLove]

I'm happy for you. Geeez... .about time I can be happy for someone!

I'm split up since the 7th, but still under the same roof. Should be leaving by the end of the month.  It's been a hellacious 4 years. Lots of BLAME on me and feeling shame as well.  I blame myself for not being able to get my business going online... .seemed like such an easy thing to do... .but not when you are nurturing a BPD partner. She didn't see it that way.  I did find Trent Shelton, and Joshua Eze. They both have inspirational stuff on Youtube, with Trent being my #1 choice.  I like Joel Osteen too, and take a look at Bruce Marchiano, he plays Jesus in spiritual type movies and also has a website:  www.marchianoministries.com/   I look up to this man and believe in him.  Contact him if you like, he'll write you back.  Best wishes.

[christin5433]

I'm happy for you. Geeez... .about time I can be happy for someone!

I'm split up since the 7th, but still under the same roof. Should be leaving by the end of the month.  It's been a hellacious 4 years. Lots of BLAME on me and feeling shame as well.  I blame myself for not being able to get my business going online... .seemed like such an easy thing to do... .but not when you are nurturing a BPD partner. She didn't see it that way.  I did find Trent Shelton, and Joshua Eze. They both have inspirational stuff on Youtube, with Trent being my #1 choice.  I like Joel Osteen too, and take a look at Bruce Marchiano, he plays Jesus in spiritual type movies and also has a website:  www.marchianoministries.com/   I look up to this man and believe in him.  Contact him if you like, he'll write you back.  Best wishes.

I will Im not too religious but I love the good feeling of looking to GOD. Im more spiritual.  So you are leaving the 7th and your ALL GOOD?

I hear you on the BLAME TRAIN... .glad to be off that... .that doesnt go away that quickly at least for me my ex pounded that into me like no tommorow.  The fact is now looking back when I think of her I see a CRazy EYE... .instead of a cute nice sweet person with lots of love that I miss... .rather I see a raging, irritable, blaming, constantly rude person who complained about the most ridiculous stuff... .

Thanks for the link. Good luck to YA.