Getting divorced from my BPD spouse

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

The Shattered Moonlight



Is that you at the bottom of the well in pieces?

You once reflected someone’s flawless image

but now, the forgotten picture tries to remember itself.

Glittering like gemstones under the empty darkness

so all may see the glory of who you are supposed to be

and all the wonderful things you are capable of.

You favor the heavens by forming constellations

to stitch the pieces back.

The image flickers as the stars,

constantly breaking and scattering.

Until illumination from a great disk fills the emptiness,

a savior perfectly round and bright.

Finally whole and protected in it’s glow

now that someone can see who you really are.

You reflect your light back in appreciation

so it can feel all the beauty you see.

You turn and see that it is just shy

of what you are searching for.

It just needs your light to round it off

to make it who you want

but it eclipses your good will and affection.

The more you shine the more it recedes

to a sliver of who you wanted it to be.

You can’t recall what you saw and the sharp edges

remind you of broken glass.

Looking up, you see the glimmer round and hopeful

but it’s betrayal will never be forgiven.

Like all things in the night sky,

everything is black and white.

[ShannonRB]

The Shattered Moonlight



Is that you at the bottom of the well in pieces?

You once reflected someone’s flawless image

but now, the forgotten picture tries to remember itself.

Glittering like gemstones under the empty darkness

so all may see the glory of who you are supposed to be

and all the wonderful things you are capable of.

You favor the heavens by forming constellations

to stitch the pieces back.

The image flickers as the stars,

constantly breaking and scattering.

Until illumination from a great disk fills the emptiness,

a savior perfectly round and bright.

Finally whole and protected in it’s glow

now that someone can see who you really are.

You reflect your light back in appreciation

so it can feel all the beauty you see.

You turn and see that it is just shy

of what you are searching for.

It just needs your light to round it off

to make it who you want

but it eclipses your good will and affection.

The more you shine the more it recedes

to a sliver of who you wanted it to be.

You can’t recall what you saw and the sharp edges

remind you of broken glass.

Looking up, you see the glimmer round and hopeful

but it’s betrayal will never be forgiven.

Like all things in the night sky,

everything is black and white.

[livednlearned]

Hi ShannonRB,

Getting divorced from your BPD spouse is not easy, and often painful. Have you filed? (Or has your spouse filed?) Any kids in the marriage?

Let us know how we can support you, and what kind of situation you're in. We also have a board for people leaving BPD relationships where many of the senior members support members to detach and grieve a “BPD” relationship breakup, do a post mortem, process abandonment anxiety, and understand betrayal trauma. The Lessons there can be very helpful for divorce recovery, too.

Please keep posting and let us know how you're doing. People here really do care, and understand. Many have walked in your shoes.



LnL