Was doing ok.
Bad dreams this morning. She was with an old friend and they were in a perfect relationship. In a later dream that night, she was in the same house as me, but with someone else there in bed and wouldn't talk to me.
I woke up and had to sort out what reality was, oh that's right, she was with some other guy and we haven't communicated in almost 2 months.
In a total funk now this morning, feeling on the verge of tears since getting up.
You can't control most dreams, and I feel utterly defenseless when these happen. They don't seem to be response to anything specific that happened recently.
I hope that it's part of the brain processing something and healing. That would be nice to believe.
Otherwise, it just feels cruel. My brain knows exactly how to stab me to create the most longing and pain. Why would it do that?
It's your brain telling you to let go of her. I had a similar dream about a month or two post break up. I was at her families house and I went to the kitchen and there I saw an old friend of mine that treated me poorly and ultimately used me. I asked him what he was doing there and he said he was there to see my ex. Then another guy who I didn't notice came out of her room and asked who I was. I said I'm her boyfriend. He started laughing as did her family who was sitting in the other room. I woke up in a sweat.
Another dream I could recall was she was kidnapped and I went to save her. I broke into this dark house with no lights and found her chained up in a room. I quickly rescued her but the guys started chasing us. After running through town with her hiding and finally getting away she looked at me and said "I'm gonna go back there". And ran away.
It was like my mind was telling me there was nothing I could do to save her like I tried to do the entire relationship. All I could think in the moment of waking up was why am I dreaming about her. It was my mind finally stepping in for my heart which I followed for so long
