Hello Gorges,
I also think that it's great that you are open to seeking support. This shows a lot of inner strength
This board, however, is not tailored to people who have BPD, but rather to those who have loved ones who have it. As such, our resources here are limited.
I encourage you to check out the following links, as they can help you better connect with those who can better support you:
Resources for BPD Suffererswww.dbtselfhelp.comI'm sure I share the feelings of a lot of members here that by reaching out for help, you demonstrate hope
This is the first, bravest step, and I wish you well on your journey
Turkish