Hi WishIKnew82,
He has some borderline traits and the first psychologist he went to said he did have it but after that it had been disregarded and ever since he thinks he is 'clean'. Especially since I am the borderline one according to him, he thinks he is the sane one. He manipulated me that I was crazy from the beginning and that all the good I did for him was so I could lure him in.
I can see how it would feel like manipulation. Are you familiar with projection?
Thank you!
I've heard of it. I feel like he did that. Especially since he would take real events and traits of mine and used it as a weapon against me. I am really at a point where I don't even know anymore if I am legit crazy and he was right. I talk to other people that make me feel normal but since he already filled my mind in a brainwashing fashion all those months, it almost feels like I am lying or putting on a facade.
This relationship has truly screwed me up. The only thing that helps me is the fact that I know that in all my life I've never experienced any issue with anyone nor had any other problem. Fun fact : he would say that the reason I was normal all those years is because I was so good at faking and he was the only one that I showed my true self to.
No need to response if you don't want too. Just venting.
It is exhausting to have someone come into your life like this and just dissappear and make you feel like a devil. No goodbye. Just 'you are a horrible borderline devil and I never want to talk to you again'.
I still wish him well and I still love him. Silly me.