Hi unicorn2014
Not on Coping this time but the Board Parrot is still responding!
Thank you Kwamina, perhaps next time I should post this on the coping board but since not just about my parents but my marriage too I wasn't sure if it was appropriate for the coping board.
The title of this thread is 'Spiritual crisis'. You mention your PTSD from your adolescence and marriage and also your enormous grief. When you consider this grief, what is it that hurts you the most? Are you talking about that pain and trauma that led to your PTSD and is still causing you problems when you talk about being in a spiritual crisis?
I guess this is more of a coping board post. Last night my brother called me and started talking about our mother and that really triggered me. I appreciate you responding and helping me recognize this is a coping and healing issue and not a personal inventory issue.
Getting so little sleep is a real problem too. I can imagine that this can make you extra vulnerable and sensitive, especially considering your PTSD. I hope you'll be able to find a solution for this problem.
I'm going back on the medication I have until I can see my nurse. I can't sleep through the night on my own.
You are currently reading a book that you see as a preparation for getting married. You see the fact that you are reading it as a sign that you do want to give marriage another go. Was that indeed also the reason you started reading this book or were there perhaps (also) other reasons?
Now that book is why I posted here so I see this is two different posts, so perhaps I'll move the conversation about my brother's phone call over to the coping board. Thank you for sorting that out!
I learned about that book here. I am working on the imago preview, the image of the idealized mate that we carry around inside of us.
When you talk about wanting to give marriage another go, do you have your current SO in mind for that? Since you also talk about viewing yourself as single for a decade since you aren't married to your current SO, leads me to suspect that you might not be considering marrying him. Is this assumption correct?
The author of the book considers all people to be single who are not married, so that also includes engaged people. He is the one I have in mind however I open to the idea of remarriage in general. I think doing this work will help me decide if I really want to marry him or not, without reacting to him. That's why I'm taking a step back from the relationship.