Sometimes I go numb

[JerryRG]

Hello everyone

Anyone else just go numb when thinking about their exes?

I've seen her completely psychotic, I've listened to her stories and exaggerations, delusions, threats, chaos, blame, accusations, lies, heartbreak, constant aches and pains, suicide threats and on and on. And now she's happy?

4 years of hell and she's changed?

Am I suppose to believe this?

One more reason I have a difficult time trusting my reality, my sanity.

Because it must have been my fault?

I know better but I'm not 100% there yet.

[AndrewS]

Same here Jerry. My logical self totally knows what is going on but my emotional self is still fighting for the dark side. They just programmed us very deeply.

[Fogclearing]

I went numb yesterday when she contacted me and wanted to chat via Facebook.

I had missed her so much but when I saw the conversation evolve into her usual broken record waif complaints I went numb. Totally numb. I had nothing to say. I felt just emptiness and numbness. And I felt like a fool. This is what I lived with for years.