Some odd behaviour of the past

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I find it hard not have the odd behaviour of the NPD/BPD run through my brain. i try not to but it's hard to totally shake the after affect. I think, after the r/s is over we more time to focus on what was done to us where as when the r/s was alive they kept our brain going in so many directions we didn't have time to focus. Or that's what she did to me. Had me so tuned into my faults.

 The nod/BPD seems to take any slight as an insult or attack. I was thinking yesterday how I would try so hard to get her to see a point, just a smidgen of " oh ya, I see what you mean". Not a f####n chance. How much of my good energy wasted on her. I always felt depleted, tired.

I came home from work one evening, the house was cool, I checked the stove, fire was almost out. I asked ex NPD/BPD if she was feeling ok, she was ok. I took her to the stove and shower her, once again what to do. That was fine, I was polite about it, it was no big deal, I didn't want her being cold. The next evening the fire was out, she was under a blanket, I asked if she was ok, she said yes. I asked why the fire was out and she said, you told me I did it wrong. She never put wood in the stove again. I scratch my head over that. How does on squeeze " you told me I did it wrong" out of what I actually told her. Anyway I am not lamenting about the past, sometimes these random odd situations that happened, pop into my head. As I heal and look at other r/s's around me I see how abnormal mine really was.

[bus boy]

I find it hard not have the odd behaviour of the NPD/BPD run through my brain. i try not to but it's hard to totally shake the after affect. I think, after the r/s is over we more time to focus on what was done to us where as when the r/s was alive they kept our brain going in so many directions we didn't have time to focus. Or that's what she did to me. Had me so tuned into my faults.

 The nod/BPD seems to take any slight as an insult or attack. I was thinking yesterday how I would try so hard to get her to see a point, just a smidgen of " oh ya, I see what you mean". Not a f####n chance. How much of my good energy wasted on her. I always felt depleted, tired.

I came home from work one evening, the house was cool, I checked the stove, fire was almost out. I asked ex NPD/BPD if she was feeling ok, she was ok. I took her to the stove and shower her, once again what to do. That was fine, I was polite about it, it was no big deal, I didn't want her being cold. The next evening the fire was out, she was under a blanket, I asked if she was ok, she said yes. I asked why the fire was out and she said, you told me I did it wrong. She never put wood in the stove again. I scratch my head over that. How does on squeeze " you told me I did it wrong" out of what I actually told her. Anyway I am not lamenting about the past, sometimes these random odd situations that happened, pop into my head. As I heal and look at other r/s's around me I see how abnormal mine really was.