Hello Everyone

[Joy6]

I recently began therapy for alot of anxiety and depression in my life. Through this I have discovered my mom has BPD. I can't believe how well she fits the symptons, behaviors etc. I truly believe I need to remove her from my life in a huge way. This is so big for me! I have so many mixed emotions. She always made me feel like she was dependent on me. After 5 years in my house on and off she is no longer welcome. My extended family is not going to be supportive "that's just how mom is". But Im ready to heal and cry alot and move ahead. So excited to find this group!

[Kwamina]

Hi Joy6

I am very sorry you are dealing with depression and anxiety, that definitely isn't easy nor pleasant. This unfortunately is something many of our members have found themselves struggling with. I am glad you are now getting help for these issues though.

You say your mother is no longer welcome in your house after 5 years of being there on and off. Where does your mother stay now, does she have a place of her own?

I was raised by an undiagnosed BPD mother myself and know how difficult this can be and how much this can affect you. To help you in your healing process, I also encourage you to take a look at the Survivors' Guide for adults who suffered childhood abuse, you can find it in the right-hand side margin of this board. You already mentioned your depression and anxiety, are there perhaps also other areas listed in the survivors' guide that you currently find yourself struggling on?

Welcome to  bpdfamily

[Joy6]

Thank you! My mom goes from sibling to sibling staying with me mostly up until now. She is 56 sbd capable of having a job and her own place. dhe had her own Place for a year. I know that I am dealing with ptsd and I just broke down. I couldn't rake her hurtful words and constant discourse with negative comments in every conversation.

[Joy6]

I would say #3 and #7 is where I am at. The idea of talking about EVERYTHING is terrifying. I have little to no memory of childhood. The memories I do have involving her are bad. I have worked hard to store everything away for survival.

[Kwamina]

Hi Joy6

You were dealing with a lot of intense emotions as you were coming to terms with what you've been through. How are things now?

I hope your therapy will continue to help you heal and grow

The Board Parrot

[Mitchell]

 

Hi Joy6
Welcome & huggs

I had a lifetime of emotional & verbal abuse from my mother, it is difficult for all of us best thing is learn read as much as you can this will help when you understand.

First, these disorders where only defined in the 1920's/30's they are complex and hard to treat most people are in denial and do not understand they are disordered. This can be their illness blocks their awareness or it could be stigma and the notion they can't be helped On top of this the professionals are in dispute as to whether they are an mental illness or not. Most professionals won't work in this area and GP's don't get involved after all where would you send them. How do you treat someone who doesn't believe they need to be treated. Things are slowly changing now there is talk about people being successfully treated 

Hope this helps a little

Mitch