Hi loulou73,
I'd like to join Larmoyant and welcome you to bpdfamily.
there has been no contact since the last few text messages he sent ending things.
Wow. I'm sorry that you're going through this. Many members here can relate with you, your ex is avoiding you because you're probably a source shame for him with how he ended things for now. Many of us didn't get closure from our exes including me and I completely understand how difficult that is, many of us had to give closure to ourselves.
I'm glad that you decided to join us, there is hope. You're not alone.