After around 3 months, she suddenly changed her attitude until the moment she confessed that she lost interest on me.
the vast, vast majority of relationships end at around, or before, 90 days. they end for all sorts of reasons: major or minor incompatibilities, different tastes, too little in common, superficial things, or often, for no real, discernible reason at all apart from "it just doesnt work". dating is a lot of luck, and timing, good and bad.
in this case, she gave two clues:
she lost interest
1. the flame from those 3 months fizzled.
"i know you are looking for a serious and committed relationship, but i am not ready yet"
2. youre both looking for different things.
She also admitted that she is currently "in love" with a stranger she know from Dating App, in which she never met and lives so far abroad.
this makes sense for what shes looking for: something less serious, less committed. there is no real commitment to someone you havent met and lives abroad.
she asked me to wait until she finally makes up her mind
this doesnt make much sense
its not reasonable to ask someone that youre not willing to commit to, to wait on you while you explore something else.
unfortunately, that can be what you get with bpd: someone at the mercy of powerful, but often fleeting emotions, with poor boundaries, impulsive and/or immature behavior, and difficulty seeing the effect of their actions on others. its a special needs relationship.
My logical calculation suggest I should move on, but the emotional part says I should stay. What a dilemma.
thats the hard part.
do you see a future for the relationship beyond those 90 days? what would it look like?