Can you make them feel your pain

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Hi guys. My ex and I started talking again after a few years. She gives me no time, though she’ll say she misses me, and the days we were together. Makes jokes about not fully being able to leave me. Even told me I should come visit. Then she disappears. This has been going on since fall, she had just reached out again after a few months of nothing. She also keeps telling me she has no phone and I feel like she keeps me at a distance. It tears me up cause I can see her active and she either leaves me on read or doesn’t even read my message and it hurts. I’ve been genuine, I told her I’d love to talk again and I miss her but all I seem to be worth is a few messages a day if that. What is going on? My heart is getting torn apart over this.  I’ve told her so many times it hurts but I feel like she just says what I wanna hear, and I don’t want to make a fool of myself. Just yesterday she told me to come visit, and then left me on read over a day. It’s killing me and she is all that I can think about my heart is hurting. I really need advice. I think I upset her by telling her I figured I she hated me and wanted me dead, and told her I thought of removing the tattoo I had for her when she told me she still had my name tattooed. I've thought about it and I'm down playing the game. It's obvious she is toying with me and I hate myself for letting it drag on, I've made a total ass of myself once again, three years later. I just want to know if there is anyway to make her feel my pain, I want her to understand how worthless she made me feel and I want it to hurt her just as she hurts me. If she even replies I'm done answering I just hate this feeling. It's not fair she gets to ruin me and move on like it never happened

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Hi guys. My ex and I started talking again after a few years. She gives me no time, though she’ll say she misses me, and the days we were together. Makes jokes about not fully being able to leave me. Even told me I should come visit. Then she disappears. This has been going on since fall, she had just reached out again after a few months of nothing. She also keeps telling me she has no phone and I feel like she keeps me at a distance. It tears me up cause I can see her active and she either leaves me on read or doesn’t even read my message and it hurts. I’ve been genuine, I told her I’d love to talk again and I miss her but all I seem to be worth is a few messages a day if that. What is going on? My heart is getting torn apart over this.  I’ve told her so many times it hurts but I feel like she just says what I wanna hear, and I don’t want to make a fool of myself. Just yesterday she told me to come visit, and then left me on read over a day. It’s killing me and she is all that I can think about my heart is hurting. I really need advice. I think I upset her by telling her I figured I she hated me and wanted me dead, and told her I thought of removing the tattoo I had for her when she told me she still had my name tattooed. I've thought about it and I'm down playing the game. It's obvious she is toying with me and I hate myself for letting it drag on, I've made a total ass of myself once again, three years later. I just want to know if there is anyway to make her feel my pain, I want her to understand how worthless she made me feel and I want it to hurt her just as she hurts me. If she even replies I'm done answering I just hate this feeling. It's not fair she gets to ruin me and move on like it never happened