Hi Rona
Thanks for introducing yourself to our community. You have been dealing with this for a very long time now. Has your mother perhaps been officially diagnosed with BPD and/or any other disorder? Do you feel like she has ever in any way acknowledged that there might be something wrong with the way she behaves and treats the people closest to her?
I ran and found her Xanax - which she takes too much of and drinks quite a bit.
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She attempted to jump out of my brothers moving car on a highway during an argument.
This behavior of your mother is quite concerning and clearly shows she has some very poor coping mechanisms. Does she have a tendency to engage in self-harming behaviors and/or to put herself and others in physical danger?
I am angry my dad keeps getting pulled in too. I feel like I Am in middle.
I understand why this situation would anger you, especially after having dealt with it for so long now. Do you perhaps feel like your dad is allowing himself to be pulled in out of fear, obligation and/or guilt?
... .fear, obligation or guilt ("FOG" are the transactional dynamics at play between the controller and the person being controlled. Understanding these dynamics are useful to anyone trying to extricate themselves from the controlling behavior by another person and deal with their own compulsions to do things that are uncomfortable, undesirable, burdensome, or self-sacrificing for others.
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